About Chloe

Okay, I think I should start at the start, because that is the best place, really. Okay here goes, I really like this guy and for the last 6 months we have really hit it off we have know each other for two years and met online he lives like a 2 hour drive away, but it's worth it. SO, he tells me his best mate likes this girl and they go out with her and her mate and that when he was drunk he admitted she was fit. WELL as a girl, I had to check her out, so I got my mate to add her on bebo, and went on her page, I hit the photo button, and just looked at the first page, and new i was going down that dodgy path. So I exited and told my friend, I couldn't do it! I mean what would I of done if I found a photo? I don't do jealously...well thats what I hope. So I stopped before I got myself in to deep. Now to me I think I stepped the line becuase I know he likes me but I had to check her out, and I now feel guilty doing so, its werid, I know! Now did I do the right think? OR was I a super stalker? Or becoming one? I stopped before it got to bad, but how can I meet the girl because to me shes a dog, never met the girl but it's in the blood! haha, I know its pathetic but it is a girl thing, but it is so easy to becoming a 'bunny boiler' and thats becuase our emotions control us and we can't control them when lust, love come in. TO ME, love, lust and jealously are in the same box as you end up feeling all of them at the same time. So am I justified? I think I am but I do think I was on that slop to stalkerville, which I like to stay I haven't took up residence in just yet! So please tell me, was I right or wrong?
I hope I am right, I did what I needed to do but also stopped before it got to bad. oh gosh, I really hope I am not turning into a bunny boiler or I will have to warn the guy or he might get freaked out!
love you lots people (:
Bye xoxo Cici

Oh yes, hello my name is Chloe, I just had my 16th brithday and shall we say, it didn't go all to plan. After being ill for the last two years, I was trying to create a new life and this party was like the start. But oh no! Some of my so called friends didn't turn up, I was really hurt by this, I mean what did I do? Was it my fault? More I think about it, it wasn't. I did nothing, it was my "friends" who let me down, not me, and I shouldn't punish my self for it. See people will always tell you what you want to here, but I have to admit, I prefer the truth from the bullshit (sorry for language, but its the real word for it). I don't think i'm better than anyone else, nut they could of at least sent a text saying 'happy birthday' but they can't.
Sorry for the rant, I hope someone might actually care and help me in this sad mess, I just don't know what to do, I feel angry and bitter towards them and Idon't want to because I'm better than that (not in a cocky way). I just want my life to be normal, for once!!! haha
okay so thank you for reading my fabulous rant, hopfully, I might get answers.
Bye xoxo Cici